I don't know if god is real, I feel like yes but act like no. I know that I am in a time of desperation right now though and prayer might help. I am possibly going to lose my family. I don't know if, or how, I can go through losing my love and my kids again. My heart is hurting badly and I don't want to lose my family. Please pray for me. My children need me especially, and I need them.